I am confused.Really. I want to fight with her, but not ignore her! I also feel guilty about what I'm doing ,but I can't stop it! I am just blaming myself for what I am doing, I even know the solution but I'm not doing it, WHY? Why? WHY???
I think it is my(self)
" I DONT LIKE ANYONE ON EARTH!" I can't be equal to anyone! Man, I can't put myself inside a single category! Am I not BAD? I am confused. Really.
I was going through a pile of old stuff when I noticed an A4 sheet full of words....I decided to take a closer look and got this stuff! I am not telling who has written it as I don't know who really wrote it [ ;) ] ........I was shocked at the writer's lack of optimism , arrogance and that attitude! OMG! I couldn't bear it! SO, I'm sharing my cynicism with you guys!
The style of the writer seems to be nice, The style of matching the first 4 words with the last 4 is really good. When moving on to the next line 'I want to fight with her not ignore her' shows so much egoism and arrogance that I pity that poor friend who got stuck with the writer!
The next line offers some solace by stating that the writer IS guilty of what they are doing! BUT, The immediate phrase shows the helplessness and lack of control of temper of that writer who frankly states that they can't control it!
'I am just blaming myself for what I am doing, I even know the solution but I'm not doing it, WHY? Why? WHY??? '
The next phrase shows the quality of self harassment or at least self punishment as I get to know that they are blaming themselves for whatever stupid row they had with their friend!
When a person does know the solution and doesn't follow it it is called 'foolishness', 'over pride' and adamant behavior.....I do pity that person for the frustration they are inducing on themselves!
The explanation the person give for their strange contradicting behavior is 'I think it is my(self)
This is the frankest and the most sadistic confession I have read in my life.....I am seriously now doubting that the writer is a self harmer. 'I need pressure'! shows all symptoms of it. Most likely suicidal patterns to succeed! Hating happiness and niceties shows an anti social pattern too..........
The last last lines suggest that the person is coming back to normal...pah....and ends up how they started -really confused!
What would I suggest them to do?
- Goto a proper counselor and vent out their emotions.....
- Listen to the advice of the counselor
- Try an anger management course
- Do yoga
- To always carry that smile!! =)
- Find the root cause of their anger/confusion/madness
After writing this post my mother saw the A4 paper I saw the text on.......she stated laughing uncontrollably!
me: So it is you!!! who scribbled all this nonsense!
she: ( still laughing) nonono!! (again laughs)
me: AMMA!! plzz tell.....
she:(suppressing badly) Don't you recognize that stupid style of starting and ending with the same phrase?
Shit!! It was me! .......................I will never ever believe I wrote such a kiddish entry...but that 'style is mine! is mine! Shit!! It was me!
moral of the story:
- Never scribble anything crazy
- Never forget to DISPOSE it.....:(
- Don't prejudice anything until you know who wrote about it!